February 2010
life is but a dream
When I was young, some time around eight years old, I honestly thought that life as I knew it was a prophetic dream. I believed that I was still a fetus in my mother’s womb dreaming about my future life and that for some reason or another, I was being given a chance to see what would happen so that perhaps I could change any of the bad things that would happen. I thought about this...
January 2010
into the dark
Right now I’m stumbling and listening to my iTunes on shuffle, hence all of the randomness I’m posting. Anyway, this song by Death Cab For Cutie came on, and I haven’t heard it in at least a year. The first time I ever heard the song, I was sitting alone in Temple’s cafeteria eating breakfast and studying for Japanese, when the video for the song came on. When it was done,...
“You can’t breathe without coughing at daytime, and neither can I. So what...”
– Alkaline Trio
(currently listening to)
01.28.09
On this day last year, it was hailing and freezing cold. Around this exact time, I was outside waiting for a bus to take me a doctor’s office where I would sit for six hours and think two options in my head over and over and over again. My mind was torn and in the end I came to a painful decision. I still try to convince myself that there was no other way.
What I can look forward to today -...
44 WAYS I MAKE MYSELF MISERABLE.
List taken from HERE:
Compare yourself frequently with others. My entire life I’ve been surrounded by people who are better at me in everything. Relatives and friends who were smarter, prettier, funnier, etc. Even if I feel people don’t have much going for them in comparison to me, I still have to find something to envy.
Belittle yourself. This goes along with number one. These...